Living against the wind is never an easy task

Living against the wind is never easy. The day's go by so fast now. Haven't worked in weeks. Thats not whats so bothersome. I don't miss all the commercial work I've been doing the last six month's. Don't miss the rude journeymen or the chipper apprentices always tending me. I do miss the drive to work, the drive home, the break in the morning when the day slowly moves ahead. I am spending my day's on less and less productive endeavours. I watch the clock as afternoon moves to evenings on these cold Minnesota day's.

Maybe she didn't mean to put us both in this ridiculus situation but here we are. Another storm tot endure, just when life seemed so promising. Great job, nice downpayment on our large house. The promise of spring and renovation. Plans to make life even better. Even managed to pay off both vehicles last yar. Not a bad year all and all. Just did the first draft of our taxes and although not a banner year, it was a year that the funds were there for nearly anything wanted.

All crashing to a full halt on Dec. 30th. 5 Days in jail for her. I still haven't forgiven her and she know's it. It's tangible. It's the elephant in the room. A stinking mass of resentment that if isn't address will end up terminating our marriage. I know she has said she is sorry but I just can't let it go and trust her.